House of Cards

Awake again in a cold empty house

Listening to the wind raging outside

I wonder if the pain is worth it

When it all comes tumbling down

The card i've been dealt

So carefully placed

Til my house of cards comes crashing down

Will it all be a waste?



Don't leave i beg of you

Leave me alone I'm pleading

Just go, just stay

I have no idea what i'm needing



An empty bed consumed with irrational thoughts

My brain is over run

My body is shutting down it's done

The pain doesn't cease

The hate doesn't subside

My house of cards is collapsing

I'm drowning within this high tide



Don't leave i beg of you

Leave me alone I'm pleading

Just go, just stay

I have no idea what i'm needing



Self-mutilation from the inside out

My mind is being ripped apart

Every thought i have is proceeded with doubt

I hate you, I hate me

I hate the mirror in which I see

A torn girl fumbling

Atop of a shaky house of cards tumbling



Don't leave, Don't go

Don't stay, I don't want you to know

Just how easy my house of cards falls

How quickly I can lose it all.



© Kristin Bennett 2010

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